Sometimes

Sometimes I ask my little brothers if they want to go to the park or make cookies with me or something.

Sometimes they say yes. But sometimes they say "No, I want to watch Gilligan's Island right now."

I don't force them to have fun with me, but I just walk away feeling a little sick and think to myself "Really Gilligan's Island cannot compare with building relationship. I know that at seven you think that life will always be like this, but it won't. You have no idea how much fun I had planned for you. You are missing out." And I feel sad.

Sometimes I tell God that I'd rather watch Gilligan's Island than hang out with Him.

"Oh I'm sorry, but I have at least an hour of worrying to do right now. I have to be mad at my family for a while. I'm tired and need to sit and read. I'm going to check my facebook first. Thanks for the redemption and unfailing love thing though. I appreciate that. Maybe later."

Really, I say that.

He won't force me to have fun, but I bet it makes Him sick. My selfishness cannot compare to building a relationship. Sometimes I think that this world is forever, but it isn't. I forget how much fun there is to be had. I miss out, and I make Him sad.

Sometimes my brothers and I have a blast.

Sometimes I listen to God.

And sometimes I remember not to be stupid.