Posturing

I've found a small group and been going for about three weeks. They are breaking into smaller groups, so I'm waiting that out.

Someone once told me to go to a new group three times before giving up. It was good advice because it takes me that long to be comfortable.

I just joined the online community that this new church has. I hate the idea of it. Virtual church is uncomfortable for me, and as a newcomer I found it exclusive and weird. There's some irony in blogging about that.

Right now my goal is to posture myself for growth and relationship. I keep hitting walls of distrust, anger, or lack of discipline. Maybe this is where I am now, but this is not where I want to be, who I want to be, forever.

So the church adventuring continues. God help me.